Changes: For Better Or Worst

 So I have decided to make some big changes in my life! Whch include leaving the relationship I am in, Leaving my apartmen and moving back in with my family, being more focused on me, school, and work! Which isnt so bad actually! I am pretty stoked about everything and cannot wait  for everything to fall into place!

I know I have cried woof several times before when it has come to leaving my relationship, but  M and I are in different places and we both know and understand these changes are for the best. We WOULD DEF PREFER to stay together, but I think we have both done enough damage in our relationship. We have lost our friendship, trust, and faith in one another, we have just been going through the motions of  trying to keep this relationship going without having any of that!

So it has been hard! we do however plan to stay cool, and try to rebuild our friendship, and possibly move forward. I do not know if we will really move forward with trying our relationship over! but we do plan on getting our friendship back as of now, which it can change later who knows.

We have been together for 4years so we have got a lot of stuff to seperate but for the most part I said he can have it all. I really want to start fresh NEW EVERYTHING! so that is my plan with that and how I plan to move forward.

I really plan on getting myself back together faith,health spiritually the whole  9 yards! I want to be a better person all the way around, so I plan to be just that! I want to focus more into budgeting, and saving because I have effortlessly failed a zillion times in that area. And I want school to be a success I am ready to earn my degree, and start my career! I was hoping by this time next year I would be on the verge of buying a house, but I need to work on me for a while, and I realize that now. I need to get Ariell back in order before I commit to anything else!

 

So Those are my plans for now, I do not quite know for sure when I am moving with my Uncle I am assuming it will be late August, early July! Because I want to wait until Jade graduates High School, I do not want to have to transfer her schools, as to my Uncle lives in a different city! and I just dont want to have to drive her back and fourth everyday either. So right now, I feel focused, and pleased with my desicion! and I am glad that M and I have came to a mutual desicion. I love him! I will always LOVE HIM! but we are different we have always been different, and Now our differences are bumping heads. I honestly feel like it is the damage we have both caused in our relationship. Because we used to have a very strong relationship, we were each others rock! and we have let each other slip through the cracks... ANYHOO I am ALSO STILL TRYING to write my TWO BOOKS! and I want that to stay a focus as well! I have been in contact with a few publishing companies! and things have been going well on that note! I just have to keep writing, and get them finished!!!

 

Well thanks like always for reading! and I am sure to keep my blog updated! it is my sense of release it seems like! I love to share and it is like my diary I guess! Have a wonderful DAY EVERYONE!!!!

 

I hope everyone went out and voted!!!!!