Almost 2011 ! ! ! ! !

First and foremost, I want to wish everyone a Late Merry Christmas, and hopes that everyones Christmas went well. And a Early New Years !

So it's been a little while since I have blogged, and no I havent forgotten about it, just been a little busy. But here are the updates..

Well I have been on Christmas break within school, and I have been LOVING IT ! With work I have been working overtime hours for xbox, and boy were we busy during Christmas, its still a Little busy because there asking us to come help out again. So I assume the Kinect was a great hit ! I honestly LOVE it I have had no problems with the Kinect at all, and its my new best friend !

On Christmas Eve, I took a trip to Indiana, to visit with family, and so that my Boyfriend can see his daughter, and that whole day was a mess the plans didnt go nothing like I thought they would and I was really disappointed with the results of that trip.... UNTIL.....

We got back home, My boyfriend proposed to me ! and he was so super sweet about it, and we have been having hard times, not financially or anything, just in general with our relationship, and I had really thought come Jan 1 we were going to be done. Which I was and was not fine with it....

I was fine if we seperated because I felt like its a New Year, and when one door closes another one opens, and not only that I was prepared to have some me time, and not focus on no more men for a while.

I was not okay with it because I love him dearly, and I wasnt ready for us to just be done with. We have been through so much together, and he is my best friend! I wasnt ready to lose everything we have built, and have had together, and nor was I not ready to be alone.. I love hime for him, his company his conversations etc.

Not to say he is perfect he has some imperfections.. a few actually ! But I feel as though our souls connect in some weird way, he knows me like the back of his hand, and I know him just as well. Its just some much time and effort we had put into us, I just wasnt okay with letting go. But at the same time I had felt like there is only so much you can do to try to make things right, and I ahd felt like for a while I was the only one trying.

Just a week piorior to Christmas, we had actually really been getting along, and we had some serious conversations about our relationship and what things both parties could do to make things better. and the plans we had came up with and how serious our conversation was, made my heart skip a beat.

I was relieved to know that he does care, and wants just as bad as me to make things work.. make this our last chance. and I was overwhelmed with joy, and I agreed to this being our last chance. Come Christmas Eve, he asked me to marry him, and had this long speech, about he wants to go to sleep, and awake to me everyday, and how he is nothing without me, and howmuch he loves me and knows I love him too, and that he wanted us to be forever and ever.

that was just a debrief of the conversation, it was sooooo much more to it than that, and I said YES ! I HONESTLY LOVE Him.. and I do not even want to picture my world without him in it.. I COULD DONT GET ME WRONG but I dont..

A friend of mine was not to thrilled about the situation, actually two of my friends, feel as though I am too young, and I am not making rational decisions with this, and I simply told them I love him.. and to me thats all that mattered.

One of my friends told me to at least give myself a two-year engagement, so that we as in me and my now Fiance can grow, and since we were so close to being done. it allows us to rekindle our love, and really work on our relationship.

HOWEVER, I had already told my Fiance, that I did not want to get married right away, that I wanted to wait at least a year, and a half because we are working on getting new cars, and moving in to a house, before this year is over.

Also my younger brother we are taking in for a while, while he does his first year in college, and such. I just have other things going on right now to where I dont want to worry about them, and trying to budget, and plan a wedding.. So its not that I was or I am listening to my friend in which told me to wait, I had already had the paln to wait anyways so whats another 6 more months?

I also think it would be financially better to wait too, I dont want to rush it, and have some lame wedding.. I want my wedding to be of my dreams. I want everything to be prefect, and go just how'd I always dreamed my wedding to be.

But as far as 2011... it's time for big things, and I am so prepared to rock this RING! and make big things happen for 2011 ! THanks for listening. !

Last few days...

So Sunday, i wen tand hung out with my brother ! &&& it was great ! I miss hanging out with him. I naturally moved closer to him to be able to see him more. but with both of us in school and both working our hours are soo different. So it was great to be able to go hang out with him. & we wrestled a bit, & he bit me.. now I have great bruises on my arm LMBO ! it was too funny he was totally cheating in checkers SMH ! Anyhoo TOday I had to go to this assited living class, and sign up to help those of whome need a little assitance in there home. which I thought was cool to be able to even assist someone with whatever there needs maybe. I am just so shor for time. I feel like I do not have time to do anything which sucks ! but it will all work out for me I know.

I just must stay focused, and keep my eyes on my goals, and I go this ! I am soo excited and ready for 2011 though its un real ! Speaking of which.. I should prolly change my address from my nana's old house since they moved just in case I still have anything going there.. not sure that I do.. but it never hurts to be safe ! I get off work in 29 mins, and I couldnt be more excited ! yeaha ! okay well that is enough for tonight ! later !

12/06/2010

So all last week I was working from 9am-1am, basically. & I have to say... this week I am tired, Of course I was off yesterday. But I went and spent time with my little brother, and my nana. And yesterday just went so fast. Now I am totally ready for it to be thursday, because I am off on thursdays, and we get paid fridays. !

I stayed up late last night talking to my bestie abotu different situations in life, and I feel as if she doesn;t understand why I see things certian ways, and I dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. I know no matter what no one is going to think the same, we all think different, and veiw things differently. But she just I guess couldnt understand why i felt the way i did with certian situations. No biggy though, were different people with different thoughts and opionions, and were entiled to our own.

Well I have not to much more to say today, and I have to start work in 10 minutes, so everyone.. keep your head up,a nd always strive to be the best you can be for you ! and keep it moving.

Choices !

I have choosen for the time being.. I am going to be 20. I have had to grow up way to fast, and have jumped in to relationships that have been way over my head. I have a new direction in life now, and I need to focus on what really matters, and put everything else behind me.

I do not need a boyfriend right now, there too much work, and too much of a headache, that I do not need right now. I need to create a path for my road I am traveling on, and I do  not need anything or anyone who is going to block my road, but yet only help me build it.

I have great friends, and great family, and Right now I feel like they are all I need. and I am cool with that. I guess That is about it for today. I am too ready for JAN 1 2011 ! IM READY ! (in my spongebob voice) :)