Sunday, September 22, 2013

Stresses / OVERWHELMED / GOING NUTS


Stress: a state of mental or emotional strain or tension resulting from adverse or very demanding circumstances. 

Now, I know the true meaning of STRESS, not only from the definition I posted above, but yet from the fact I am going through it right NOW!!

For the past few years, I was attending school online (college that is) and I got to where I only needed nine more credits to have my Associates Degree in Human Services Management, well six of those credits were math class's (in which is a area or where I struggle) and of course I struggled, I could not seem to be able to get through the classes online. At that moment I decided I would go to a community college, and finish off my schooling. 

Who would have thought it would be that much different then going to school online? I did not think there would be much of a difference besides actually going to school, and seeing my classmates in person instead of pictures online. 

Well WEll the result here is that working full time, and going to school is not as easy as I thought it would be. Going to an actual school is a lot more demanding then it is online, online you decided when you went to class and at what time, you just needed to make sure all your assignments, and such were turned in on time. As to going to a local school you have set days you have to be in class, and if you miss them its marking your grade down each class missed. 

It is hard! I work second shift, and one would think the latest they are getting out would maybe be 1am. NOOOOO were lucky if we get out at one, and I am serious when I say lucky. BUT DO NOT GET ME WRONG I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY JOB! I really do I work for an amazing company, my manager is amazing, all my co-workers are amazing, everyone gets along good, we all work well together. I could not ask or a better working environment (maybe a warmer one) but definitely not a better one. 

So lets do some calculations here, I am working from 3pm until lets say 2:30am the latest, then I have classes some days at 9am and some days at 7:45am, my 9am classes go from 11 to 12:30 and my 7:45am class goes until 9:15 grant I live in one city, I work in another, and go to school in another. SO the travel time from my house to school is about 30 mins, and about the same from my house to work.

In between work and school I also have a puppy Named Baby! and she is my bundle of joy so I have to make sure she is well taken care of in between times. Which that is where I could be napping, but no I have my baby to take care of... SO we have SCHOOL/WORK/And a DOG...

Yeah Im living the stress  










So in the mist of everything I am kind of going crazy... I think I am doing okay but I am not doing well enough... I listen to Steve Harvey in the Morning, and he said "One that is more concerned about how much sleep they get are never going to be successful" and it is true, If your spending all this time sleeping, and not doing what you need to do to get where you need to be how are you ever going to get to where you want to be? You wouldn't you will stay in the same spot. and I am actually currently learning that lesson to.

I moved in with my uncle to give myself some time to pay off my debt, and I have been here, and there half assing it...not getting anywhere with my debt basically wasting my money, because the late fees for my credit would pile on and it would be like I never even made a payment like I was not knocking anything down. SO now I have set up a plan for my debt, I am going to tackle on item at a time, and pay it off then move on to the next instead of trying to pay everyone something, because that tactic is costing me more money then it is saving me. ANd hopefully things will go accordingly... We will have to wait and see the outcome of it but I am feeling preeeetttyyy confident this is going to work out in my favor!!!!