Interracial Dating Central

 What comes to mind when the words "Interracial Dating" has been spoken?

      Do you become happy? Sad? or have no feeling at all about it?

I come from a interracial relationship, my mother is white, and my father is African American. I am pretty sure the word they use for us is Mulatto. 

When you meet someone you are truly interested in, rather it is a friendship or a romantic relationship WHY SHOULD COLOR MATTER? It shouldn't matter at all, and honestly it does not matter. Yes some people are stupid and totally against interracial dating, but so what! Are you going to allow other people's opinions stop you from your own happiness? NO! 

I being mixed in all, I like guys from all races, because in all actuality the color of their skin or their nationality does not matter to me. All that matters in that the man is a good man, he will or does make me happy and we can go from there. However, I never really knew how to approach white men. I do not know why! I always get so nervous when I have to talk to a white man that I have a crush on. I guess it might have something to do with the fact that I grew up in a urban area. I mean do not get me wrong there were white people where I grew up. BUT none that I was interested in dating or had a crush on so it was no big deal talking to them.

And as I got older and move more around I then noticed I get really shy around white guys that I have a crush on. 

Now I know I have been rambling but I HAVE FOUND THE KEY!!! There is this website called Interracial Dating Central! www.interracialdatingcentral.com

Which I am sure you all could have guessed by the BIG PICTURE AT the top of this page. 

But back to the point, this website is designed to help all of us who might be shy, or want to start slow with meeting new people. This website allows us to communicate with different SINGLE men and women of all different nationalities it lets you test the waters! And it brings people who are just as interested as you are to date outside of your own race together!!! 

So for me as an example, like I said for some reason I am really nervous around hot white men, I could easily join Interracial Dating Central, and start talking to a white man, and be able to connect with him on a more personable level so when we are in public I do not freeze up like a kid just seeing santa for the first time. 

Our lives are so hectic, and we do not have time to play the guessing game on if he/she likes me or if they do not! It is 2014 and so many people have met their soul mates online! So now here is your chance!!!

Go check out the site! Make an account explore! The site is very user friendly, and you can read all their success stories on their home page! 

Now is the time to take control, and go after whoever it is your are interested in!!! LOVE HAS NO COLOR!!!!

www.interracialdatingcentral.com

January 2014! Time to get RIGHT with MYSELF!!!

Everyone has their New Year resolutions, or their "New Year, New Me" spills. This year I told myself I would not partake in any of that! I do not want to set goals, that are not realistic, nor do I want to make promises to myself that I know I will not keep! So instead I have decided, that I am going to learn to become at peace within myself! It is something that I need to do! FOR ME!!! I have never been so excited to start any sort of process more than I am excited right now about starting this one!

 

Now, I have always said time, and time again that I would start saving. Yet I never seem to do it. I mean I come up with these plans "budget plans" to save, but somehow I fail them every time! I said somehow because at first I did not understand why I could make the perfect budget for everyone else, yet I couldn't make one for myself. NOW I ave realized in a budget you must include everything, like gas, food, medicine, pet expenses etc. My butt would just make a budget for saving, and my bills... then wonder why nothing every worked or why I never had food etc. I mean it is simple stuff that I left out because I did not think it would be that important to add... Well I am going to say that EVERYTHING you spend your money on NEEDS TO BE IN YOUR BUDGET (if your creating one) if not your budget will always fail like mine did! 

I have a lot coming up and a lot going on in these next few months so I want this budget to work so that I can handle what I need to and do what I need to financially! I am really taking this year and devoting all my hard earned pennies to getting my life back on track, I was focused, and then I got lost... NOW I AM MORE FOCUSED THAN EVER!!! Let ME TELL YOU IT IS OFFICIALLY GRIND TIME!!!! 

 Anyone who know's me well, KNOWS that I have been putting basically my life on hold to lend a helping hand or be there for everyone else... I have now come to realize that when it is all said and done, and I needed people to be there for me like I was for them..... let's just say the giving back hand was not really one I could grab onto. I am perfectly fine with that... Like I do not help people etc in hopes of the same help in return... I did what I did for others because that is who I am! I have a big heart, and I will give someone my last if I had to with no questions asked! However as I look around, and see where I am left, it is not in a good place... and for what? Because I was so caught up making sure everyone else was good I did not take the time out to make sure I was good! Truth be told I left myself in a shitty place... I am not hurting but I am not comfortable either... It is a live and you learn so to speak type lesson! I am just happy I am finally putting my foot down, and getting stuff back right! 

So I am sure you might be wondering what the "No New Friends" picture is about... Well..... hmm... Let me just say if I did not know before, I know now my worth, and some people just are not worth anymore of my time... DO NOT TAKE THIS WRONG, I am not degrading anyone in anyway! I just know right now I do not need rift raft people in my life, nor do I need any men all in my face, nor do I need drama from people! That is to everyone! FRIENDS, FAMILY, WORK, SOCIAL MEDIA, like I am not with it... OBVI I am doing something wrong because I say no drama, yet somehow I get caught up in it... So I am trying my best to eliminate all aspects of drama, and drama-filled people... 

Not only drama tho, people tend to grow apart, and go on their separate ways, which IT IS LIFE IT HAPPENS! I believe no matter how old you are you have room to grow, and some times within that room that you grow you realize that you do not like certain things, or that your views are different then others etc. NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT... I just, I am on a path to recovery, of my OWN PEACE OF MIND, and as selfish as this may sound I do not have time to try to help others figure out their path when I am still trying to figure out my own...

WHATEVS you live you LEARN you MOVE on! I have no worries in the choices I have yet made this year! I am very good with all of them! I have never again felt so free! like I know with this focus I am going to get a lot done this year and it is already such a relief!   

You know, I have been my own worst critic like I will hype myself up and tear myself down, and I ruin my own chances to open bigger doors for myself... Well I am done being scared, I am done knocking my own hopes and dreams out of the window! I am my OWN FAN! my OWN NUMBER ONE FAN!!! I can honestly say that this time I am not turning down nothing that can better me! I might be scared, but I am going to go through with everything! I am going to do what I need to do to be a better me for my won better future! I know I am going to have some HATERS but I am not worried! I am going to honestly pray for them, and hope they to will wake up and get their lives together, maybe one day they too will want better for themselves? Who Knows?! I just know that the HUNGER IS REAL and I am going to be GRINDING HARD THIS YEAR!!!! like no other!!! ALL WORK AND NO PLAY IT IS TIME!!!! No ONE is going to DO IT FOR ME!!! I gotta show up and SHOW OUT!!! and that is what I PLAN ON DOING!!!!! 

Like Always I really appreciate everyone who takes the time out to read my blogs! Some times their good, sometimes I am ranting but hopefully all in all some of these help people reach out and do what they need to do etc. THANK YOU!!! remember keep checking back! I try to write at least once a month! If your lucky it might be twice a month! Some months I feel more talkative than others! :) 

         Love Always Ariell!!!

Why I NOW understand WHY SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE is WRONG.

 Okay, So we have learned or heard all our lives that sex before marriage is wrong, and that we should wait until we are married...
             I always thought that was so CRAZY especially after I started having sex... I was like there is no way people should wait to experience something so beautiful....
                                    But now that I am older I completely understand, Sex is a very powerful act. A very powerful display of emotion. The act its self should be shared between people whom actually care about each other....

I've heard endless people say sex is okay as long as you know not to catch feelings... But my question is HOW DO YOU NOT CATCH feelings for someone you just gave a piece of yourself  to?

Like honesty each time you have sex with someone your literally giving them a piece of yourself that YOU CAN NEVER GET BACK!! Why give yourself to someone whom doesnt genuinely care about you? 

For example, think of all the men or women you had sex with, if you were terminally ill or died tomorrow would they be at your funeral? Would they even give a damn that your sick or that you died? SOME MIGHT but MOST OF THEM WON'T because at the end of the day you were just a good FUCK (if they even considered you to be GOOD). 

I am going to be COMPLETELY honest here, I found myself catching feelings for men that I have slept with knowing these feelings are not genuinely there... It is very confusing, I started to feel like I had way more emotions towards people then I actually did... 

                                        Which is why sex should really be with someone you care about whom cares about you... Now I know were not all going to wait until we are married especially those of us whom have had sex, and have seen how beautiful it really is... BUT JUST BE MORE WARY of the people you choose to be with. Do not BE SOMEONES TROPHY piece of ASS... Do not allow these men or women to take pieces of your soul just so they can brag to the next man or women about "being with you". Stop allowing these men or women to make you believe they care about you so that you will sleep with them when they damn well do not care anything about you! 

I tell my sisters all the time just because you've had sex that does not mean you HAVE to have sex with every person you come across! and it is TRUE just because were SEXUALLY ACTIVE does NOT MEAN WE NEED TO HAVE SEX WITH EVERYONE... it doesn't AND I REFUSE to keep allowing men to enter my personal temple and take pieces of my gold just for the hell of it... naw BRAH I am not with it...  

 Now I am not saying that I am judging people who are having sex before marriage I am not judging nor am I telling anyone to stop having sex, I am clearly stating that I understand why I was told all my life I should wait until were married... It took me long enough to get the point... At one point I did not feel like I carried any feelings for the person I was active with, when I was younger I thought I loved almost every guy lol, and then I did not care at all. I guess as time progresses I am starting to see the real nature and emotions behind the act, and I am starting to see why it is so important to wait for the right person to give yourself to. 
    I do not care what no one says I feel like all women at least if not men too but all women go through a promiscuous stage, and did things we might not be proud of.. AGAIN I AM GOING TO BE HONEST WITH ALL MY BLOGS. 

So when I was like 15-16-17 those I would have to say were my toughest years, I was lost, and unsure of what I wanted and where I was going, and I was sleeping around... I felt like at that moment in my life that was the only thing I could control was how I partied and who I slept with... Now DO NOT GET ME WRONG... I was NOT JUST OUT THERE sleeping with everyone it was not OUT OF CONTROL... but now when I look at it it really was, I'll say within those three years I probably slept with 5-7 guys. Which is not a lot. BUT THE FUCK 15-17 MY ASS should not have been sleeping with no one... AT ALL!!!   I however do not regret the choices I choosed to make... I regret not understanding the power of sex, and how valuable it is, and how I can never get back what I allowed these men to have. But from every experience is a lesson learned... 

I am very grateful that throughout those years I did not get and std's, nor did I wine up with children. At least I was smart enough to use condoms. 

The moral of my story is,.. Sex IS A VERY POWERFUL ACT, and if your single... save yourself until your married or in a serious relationship... if your STILL A VIRGIN WAIT WAIT!!! I SWEAR sex is so much better when it is between two people whom both care deeply about each other... We ALL HAVE skeletons, I know who I am today and I do not allow myself to be judged based on my pass... I am not that 15-17 year old girl anymore, nor am I that 19, 20, 21 girl... I am me, I might be different tomorrow... WHO KNOWS but what I do know is I am worth the wait, and if mfs really care about me then they will RESPECT ME and will wait... and if they choose not to then they DONT CARE... were all worth more! KNOW YOUR WORTH PEOPLE... stop giving yourself away... waiting will be worth it...

So My vow today is, I am going to wait...I am single, and until I am on the right path with the right man my GOODIES will be kept in their bag! I need to be with someone who cares about me... not someone who is looking for a quick nut, or a quick fix, and I do not need to be looking for that either... 

December 2013! Hello

December is here!!! Christmas TIME!!! SEASON GREETINGS!!!! TIS' THE SEASON ETC! 


I cannot believe the end of 2013 is here, OMG! SO much has happened this year! 

        I am happy to get ready for Christmas, and New Years tho! I always TURN UP for New Years with my Best friend TIA we always have a good time! Christmas this year should be good too all of my siblings are supposed to be together for Christmas, so it should be fun and interesting. 

                     However I do have some things on my mind to address... I am getting older every year... And the less time I have to waste.... MEANING ALL DRAMA family, friend, fb, work ETC I do not want any part of... it is only wasting my time, and I do not have much time left to waste... Like Im not where I need or want to be in my life right now, so I will be damned if I waste anymore time with bullshit....

       With our family and friends we need to learn where to draw the line in their personal lifes. Like of course we all want the best for our family, and friends... we all want the people we associate with to carry themselves a certian way, but we cannot make anyone do anything!

      I will not get into relationship issues that do not directly affect my life, NOW I MIGHT GIVE A COMMENT or put my FEEDBACK in the situation but I am not going to full blown argue with ANYONE about THEIR RELATIONSHIPS.... its not my business... WHy get all worked up about what the next mf is doing in their relationship... they gone do what they want to do I cannot nor will not even try to control it... Its not my relationship its not my life... 

    Their is a fine line you can cross when referencing friends/family's relationships... I know where the line is and I choose not to cross it because it is not my business...

That does NOT MEAN I am okay with a situation or I do not care that it has happened but I am not going to waste my energy being upset about it... I can't I do not have time for it... 

This is the END OF 2013 I want to end it on a POSITIVE NOTE WITH MY SIBLINGS that is all, I am ready for the NEW YEAR, and I am hoping to get alot of things accomplished for 2014 so that I am OWN 2015!!!! yes I am being optimistic very but hey there is alot of things I HAVE TO GET DONE, and I am HOPING within 2014 everything will get done!!!! 

TIS THE SEASON!!!!

Stresses / OVERWHELMED / GOING NUTS

Stress: a state of mental or emotional strain or tension resulting from adverse or very demanding circumstances. 

Now, I know the true meaning of STRESS, not only from the definition I posted above, but yet from the fact I am going through it right NOW!!

For the past few years, I was attending school online (college that is) and I got to where I only needed nine more credits to have my Associates Degree in Human Services Management, well six of those credits were math class's (in which is a area or where I struggle) and of course I struggled, I could not seem to be able to get through the classes online. At that moment I decided I would go to a community college, and finish off my schooling. 

Who would have thought it would be that much different then going to school online? I did not think there would be much of a difference besides actually going to school, and seeing my classmates in person instead of pictures online. 

Well WEll the result here is that working full time, and going to school is not as easy as I thought it would be. Going to an actual school is a lot more demanding then it is online, online you decided when you went to class and at what time, you just needed to make sure all your assignments, and such were turned in on time. As to going to a local school you have set days you have to be in class, and if you miss them its marking your grade down each class missed. 

It is hard! I work second shift, and one would think the latest they are getting out would maybe be 1am. NOOOOO were lucky if we get out at one, and I am serious when I say lucky. BUT DO NOT GET ME WRONG I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY JOB! I really do I work for an amazing company, my manager is amazing, all my co-workers are amazing, everyone gets along good, we all work well together. I could not ask or a better working environment (maybe a warmer one) but definitely not a better one. 

So lets do some calculations here, I am working from 3pm until lets say 2:30am the latest, then I have classes some days at 9am and some days at 7:45am, my 9am classes go from 11 to 12:30 and my 7:45am class goes until 9:15 grant I live in one city, I work in another, and go to school in another. SO the travel time from my house to school is about 30 mins, and about the same from my house to work.

In between work and school I also have a puppy Named Baby! and she is my bundle of joy so I have to make sure she is well taken care of in between times. Which that is where I could be napping, but no I have my baby to take care of... SO we have SCHOOL/WORK/And a DOG...

Yeah Im living the stress  

So in the mist of everything I am kind of going crazy... I think I am doing okay but I am not doing well enough... I listen to Steve Harvey in the Morning, and he said "One that is more concerned about how much sleep they get are never going to be successful" and it is true, If your spending all this time sleeping, and not doing what you need to do to get where you need to be how are you ever going to get to where you want to be? You wouldn't you will stay in the same spot. and I am actually currently learning that lesson to.

I moved in with my uncle to give myself some time to pay off my debt, and I have been here, and there half assing it...not getting anywhere with my debt basically wasting my money, because the late fees for my credit would pile on and it would be like I never even made a payment like I was not knocking anything down. SO now I have set up a plan for my debt, I am going to tackle on item at a time, and pay it off then move on to the next instead of trying to pay everyone something, because that tactic is costing me more money then it is saving me. ANd hopefully things will go accordingly... We will have to wait and see the outcome of it but I am feeling preeeetttyyy confident this is going to work out in my favor!!!! 

Keep Calm Its MY BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!!!

It is AUGUST!!!!!!! My birthday is AUGUST 24th!!!! TURN UP!!! #TWERK #TWERK #TWERK!!! hehe :)

Anyhoo August is such a great month for me! I got a NEW PERMANENT JOB!!! 

And I start school at the end of this month!!!!! I will be going to GRCC!!! I am so excited!!!!

So with having a new permanent job, and starting school I will be very busy! like all day every week busy! I am very excited, and nervous all at once! I want to be on the deans list this year, I want to strive hard in school I am shooting for all A's!!! for the first time in my life I am putting my best foot forward towards me and only me!!!!! I am more focused on myself then I ever been in my life!!! and I am very happy!!

I am a wee bit worried because I do have a dog, and Baby will need some babysitters because I do not want to leave her in her cage all day! so I am currently working on a schedule that will benefit her so that she won't be locked away in a cage! I feel like that is so cruel I can not do that to her! I just will not do it to her!!! SO with my schedules, and my BABY I will ddef work something out! There is so many children that live out here, where I live maybe they would like to earn a few extra bucks and help me with my dog!!!

I feel like I have not been this focused, and nervous in a long time! but I have no doubt at all in myself! I know what I am capable of and I know what I need to do to make things happen, and god has helped me close several doors, and has also opened several for me!! I feel like I can honestly hear him now, and I see the path he is wanting me to go down, and with all my might and strength I am going to do it!!!!

I also have a two year plan! I want to move to Seattle Washington, so I am setting goals in place for that as well! Which it is either going to be Seattle Washington, or Stanford California, depending on where my Cousin Mari is going to go to law school at! EITHER WAY I still need to set goals in place so no matter the outcome I am ready to go within my two year plan!!!

It really makes me nervous the thought of moving so far away, I have never been so far from my siblings, but it is time I start living for me! I have BEEN LIVING for them, and they are my heart and soul... but their all old enough now to take care of themselves  and they have the knowledge to be able to do so! SO with that being said...... I WANNA TRAVEL THE WORLD!!!!

There is so much I want to do and so much I want to see!!! I just wanna move each year to a different state! I want to travel abroad! And I am going to take all the steps necessary to do what I want to do! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ARIELL IS GONNA DO HER! 

I am nervous, I am scared, I am excited, and I am Happy!!!!

Keep posted follow me on my journey!!!!!! 

It is about to be one HELL OF A RIDE!!!!!     

DEFINE MISERY/DEPRESSION.... And if you can't LOOK THAT SHIT UP!!!

 Depression- A true clinical depression is a mood disorder in which feelings of sadness, loss, anger, or frustration interfere with everyday life for weeks or longer.

Misery- A state or feeling of great distress or discomfort of mind or body, distress, suffering, pain, poverty, affliction.

Now with those definitions I sit here in my Uncle's living room, and think and think to myself, where do people come off thinking I'm miserable, or depressed. Mostly my SIBLINGS, I guess since I am not out partying every weekend, or spending cash left and right on new stuff. I assume that makes me miserable!

     I have bills, and things I need to take care of in order to get my life back together... NOW let the shoe be on the other foot, lets say I was out spending money, partying, and buying new stuff every week.. Then I would be told I am irresponsible, and Stupid...


I just am really starting to get annoyed. I could be like some people, and let my credit stay bad, and not be able to move into certain areas or houses, or even not be accepted for certain jobs... BUT I fucked up my credit, SO I WILL CLEAN IT UP!

PERIOD, everyone needs to mind there damn business and worry about themselves. I just figured out that everyone is out for themselves, and now that I am doing the same I am miserable, and depressed...

So with all that being said, I am starting to believe that my family are my biggest haters, and to me that is sad.

I wonder if it is because they know what I am capable of... Like I am down for now, but when I come back I WILL BE COMING BACK! I think they hate the strive and motivation I have to do stuff like this. I really don't  know and I really don't care, all I know is I know who I am and where I stand, and TECHINCALLY I don't need them or their drama to keep me happy...

SORRY the ONLY THING IM ADDICTED TO IS MONEY AND CIGGERTTES I know when priorities come before fun, and I know how to budget in a good time when things get to stressful. And until  have my saving account back right, and my name cleared NO I DONT NEED to party NOR DO I NEED to be out buying new shit every weekend! I am good, I have a plan and I am executing it now...


WITH THAT BEING SAID......